A special piece for my favorite freaks....

Never have regrets, because at one moment it was exactly what you wanted.
Life is too short anyways so you must live to the fullest, and don't forget, not everyone will love you and not everyone will hate you, but they will all know your name.

Have fun, my babies... XOXO

I'll be in the dark for a very long time...

Someone once asked me...

"Have you ever just sat outside and try to slow everything down.
Just to sit out there and do nothing but look at what is around you?"
I sat there, and thought of all the times I had. Laying in my grass, with the sun shining on my face, and the breeze blowing my hair. I would lay for hours, or until my mom called me in; just laying in the grass, watching the world turn. The sad thing is I only took the time to slow things down when I was fed up and done; done with the world and it's worries, done with life, done with it all. I never took the time to look around me because I was to busy watching everthing pass me by. I was always chasing something; some moment in time that I knew I would never grasp. As I came to this sad realization, I couldn't help but feel like I was chasing the wrong things. I would chase everything except the things worth the time and effort. I always ended up empty handed, and oddly determined that the next wouldn't escape. The next and the next, they all went through like water pouring though a drain. Time was wizzing down the drain, and all I could do was watch it twril. Sitting with my computer in my lap, I wanted to weep. Weep for the times lost and the regets I had chased. Like the rays of light bouncing off my hair, I stood up and went outside. I was fed up and done with the world and it's worries, life in general, and the latest "dream" lost. I took my laptop, and here I sit. One question was all it took to wake me up. One simple question to spark the life that had slept for so long. My fingers glide across my slick keys, and my ears perk as birds sing and woodsaws buzz. Looking around now, I now know what I should be chasing, what is actually worth catching. Peace. Wind through my hair. Sun on my skin. I shouldn't be chasing life, but letting life chase me. As I type the last sentences, I can't help but feel incredibly small. In some ways feeling small helps to show you how little you do actually have worry about, and that being small in such a big world is quite alright.

(A special thanks to a certain muse who helped "wake me up" in a sense.)

"Rain" by Jon Heintz

This song has broken my heart. I heard it on Flashpoint tonight, and I felt something inside me brake. As a tear rolled down my cheek, I realized that it was my heart. I don't know why exactly, but I had to research the song on Google and then on Youtube. I had to know the name and the artist, the man who had broken me. I found it on Youtube and couldn't help but feel like sharing this amazing "pain" on my blog. This song has done what most try, and most fail. I can't help but feel drawn to this song. My soul has been hurting for so long now, and I couldn't cry, or even show the pain. My heart had to be torn for my eyes and my mind to mourn for my soul.

"Mon coeur est triste. Pourquoi êtes-vous triste, mon coeur?
Mon coeur porte le deuil pour mon âme. Pourquoi je ne peux pas porter le deuil, aussi?" -Ginna Blankenship: April 9, 2009

If you don't understand my silence, you can't understand my words...

En Fuego

Razors cut deep into flesh, but my cuts from your words lay deeper in my soul and I fear they might never heal. I've been put on more than one block,and now I know that yours will be my last. I will not stand for it any longer, therefore, I bid you a farewell. A farewell that will be as eternal as the words spoken by Jesus on the mount. They will live in infamy, resting in your mind as it tries to comprehend how something so perfect could end so quickly. You have always been on the throne, but now you are only the king of a broken kingdom and a burnt heart. I am not going to crush you like you crushed me; instead I will watch from a distance as you destroy yourself. Your blood will not stain my hands, but the throne you clung to so tightly. You were so afraid of losing your "power," that you lost it all due to your greed, and were betrayed by your own pride. Your blood will flow of your own accord, but only after the guilt has eaten you to a hollow shell. You will sit on your broken kingdom and wander your empty halls, trying to connect the all too many dots that foretold your grief. The pain and lonesomeness will consume you like a wildfire, till all that remains is the ash of a once great fool. As you burn, call out my name as I did yours. Call for me in the darkness as burn. Burn for me, like I once burned for you.

Ave Maria

This song breaks my heart everytime I hear it. It needs no words to describe its wonder.

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Ultimate Anti-Poster Child

Just when you have me figured out, I'll change. Just when you think that there's nothing left, you'll have more than you thought. Don't think I'm giving up if my head is hung, I'm just getting started. When you think I can't do anything else, sit back and watch, I'll surprise you again. I change, rearrange, and reinvent. No one can contain me, but you can try. You will fail. I will defeat you. You are predictable and boring, every move is foreseen and and already crushed. Try and beat me, you will fail. Everytime, you will fail. I am the unique enigma. One and only. Try and keep up, but you will get lost. I don't conform to anyone, including you. You can try and change me. You will fail. Good luck to you, but i will enjoy your demise. You will continusly be puzzled about me. Your thoughts will be consumed with trying to figure me out, but you never will. You will only fail. Try if you dare, give me another person to crush. You will never change anything, if you dont first change yourself. Even if you do, you'll never be like me. You'll never be as good as me. You will never be me. Good luck, but you will fail, and I will laugh.

Brad Pitt Hates Nazis: 'I want my scalps!'

Tarintino does it again!
I can not wait to go see this movie!!!!!

All Nightmare Long

All Nightmare Long: Metallica

Luck. Runs. Out.
Crawl from the wreckage one more time
Horrific memory twists the mind
Dark, rugged, cold and hard to turn
Path of destruction, feel it burn
Still life
Incarnation
Still life
Infamy

Hallucination
Heresy
Still you run, what's to come?
What's today?

'Cause we hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long
Feel us breathe upon your face
Feel us shift, every move we trace
Hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long, yeah
Luck. Runs.

You crawl back in
But your luck runs out

1.2.

Luck. Runs. Out.

The light that is not light is here
To flush you out with your own fear
You hide, you hide, but will be found
Release your crypt without a sound

Still life
Immolation
Still life
Infamy

Hallucination
Heresy
Still you run, what's to come?
What's today?

'Cause we hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long
Feel us breathe upon your face
Feel us shift, every move we trace
Hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long
Luck. Runs.

You crawl back in
But your luck runs out

Then you crawl back in
Into your obsession
Never to return
This is your confession

Hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long
Feel us breathe upon your face
Feel us shift, every move we trace
Hunt you down without mercy
Hunt you down all nightmare long, yeah
Luck. Runs.

You crawl back in
But your luck runs out

Your luck runs out

Here's a link to the video...

http://www.metallica.com/index.asp?item=601688


ENJOY!!!!!! The video is awesome, it chills you somewhat....